hunger

I'm not sure what I'm looking for.. is it food, because I'm in the last stages of a flu; or is it to be comforted, because I cannot keep up a positive attitude in choking-thick clouds of gloom?


I've spent time reading stuff from Gundam SEED this morning because I didn't get the data to work on the website.. I find the anime epic in a sense. I've a love-hate appreciation of fiction: while I feel inspired by such stories, I can't understand why reality is so different. Especially that I don't see spirited people, willing to fight for a cause or submit and still give their best.

A lazy, nonchalant attitude is within so many people I have met. Must there really be crisis for them to take action? Initiative is commended and condemned at the same time: "if you do it, great; if you want me involved, no!" People don't motivate each other, and wonder why nothing good happens. It's all negative feedback.


Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them; While the sun, or the light, or the moon, or the stars, be not darkened, nor the clouds return after the rain.

What if.. such days are come for me?