Morale is a Parameter

Until recently, I've never thought much of people who love what they do. All that matters is whether you complete the task well, or is it? I guess one of the first people to strike me was an old army regular, Warrant Cheng. Perhaps it was him and his words that inspired me to take up endurance running. "You are fortunate" - with respect to our lack of disability. Why not use these gifts as best we can? So we never give up either. Warrant Cheng didn't get a good education, and was quite vulgar in language, but unlike so many of us he wasn't lazy. I especially remember that even if it was a simple training matter, he'd remind us why we were here - for the stability in our country; how that helps us trust our paychecks will come in, and how we are willing to wait years for a HDB flat. Truth is, he loved to teach us, a complacent and individualistic generation though we were.

I'm sorry I couldn't live up to his expectations. Yes, he pointed out I had attitude, but I just can't excel in the army, lacking size and the fitness foundation. Still, I hope I can find the drive to keep doing what's right.. Perhaps one day I'll make it up and return to society.

Several other warrant officers have taught me through their experiences and actions how to carry out work efficiently - and that business should be separated from personal issues. I felt reassured that they were confident of our capabilities over other countries (even if I doubt most of my generation are willing to give their lives). A final thing I appreciate about them is that despite the pain and dirt they must have gone through in the army's early days, they still treated us noob enlistees with much respect (:


Currently, my default plan for the future involves studying, and then joining the Public Service. No, not politics - can't persuade anyone to follow my ideas. Yet perhaps, I would enter academia for the Creation Science effort. That may be my only reason why I don't want to leave Material Science & Engineering, but I really don't know if I'd do well. We've been conditioned to not make mistakes XD Maybe I'm scared God wants me to fail in something.

I did drink some wine during a dinner earlier tonight, and I actually turned red - because I dehydrated myself today. The colour is gone now that I've drunk water, but I don't know if it's affecting my mind. hm If it's helped me type out the paragraphs above, that's not a bad thing :P