hikari?

Love can be blind.. yet open your eyes too wide and you become blind to love. Where is the fine line?


I don't know - what's it like to have natural affection? Sometimes it seems life is so.. plastic. Reality doesn't feel real, so it becomes easy to distracted by the imagination. Sometimes I honestly wish there were someone to help me through this wall I've mimed for myself.

I had insight, and often I looked deeply into the affairs of life only to see no meaning. It is vain to think too much! I was always looking for purpose - which is why I find myself drawn to driven people. I would be willing to trade insight for purpose.


Anyway, the holidays wear on, and I'm finding it hard to keep focus. I've almost finished my introductory course on materials, and haven't started on attempting to learn Thai yet.

I haven't retaken IPPT yet, but as my training goes on, it seems very difficult to improve my leg's condition. I pray it'll heal, but I guess that'll only be fully realized in heaven. For now, I just think I need to be able to sing this sincerely, "we rest on Thee, and in Thy Name we go."