Cold Blood

A month left..

Once, not too long ago, I did what I never thought I should. I contemplated developing a relationship with a friend, and asked. She said no; my heart was not broken, but I was ashamed. I'm not sure if I can let go of my fear of uncertainty, but now, a new situation calls for me to move again. *sigh* I really am unused to listening to my heart.


My foot's just been frozen. Apparently I didn't soak in water first, so I don't know how effective it will be. Hopefully the amount of blood near the surface will cover for such lack and be chilled. The itch mentioned before is probably due to bacterial infection. I could try applying salt.

I don't feel like going up and down the stairs anymore. I want to get me some rope instead.. and maybe that'll help boost my pull-up count too, I've fallen to maximum 5.


I've finally started Physics. I scored 37/40 for the past year's MCQ. It's not bad.. (though I keep recalling the 0 Level days when I got 39/40 for both chemistry and physics) but my written responses tend to be worse.

I'm starting to get really scared about Geography. Uncertainty again. I've got ten days to revise Physical Geography, and had better remember to explain. I wish I could feel panic.


Some Backstreet Boys' songs are meaningful. hm. Music sounds sharper in the night.

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
Play my part & kept ya in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

I'm looking back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
Keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart