Heaven can't wait

here's a song, for the one who stole my heart.. but ran away.


Discontentment, that's what is eating away at my spirit. That must be why I can't just keep feeling down. My dreams fail as visions, hopes are dashed or faded. Perhaps my expectations are all wrong, and nobody cares enough about what I think.

I suppose all is vanity. I feel like there's nothing left to look forward to, at least in the short term. The monotony of life is hardly broken up. Working for money is a good idea but it is not fulfilling. Too bad the opportunity cost is near zero in any terms, meaning I doubt I can do anything better with my time were I not working.

Maybe all I really need is to be needed. That would give me purpose. I think it's incredibly pointless in doing things for myself - but unfortunately I'm very good at that. I wish I knew how people will simply share their problems so I can decide to solve, listen, or outsource. That'd be like a quest list! Too bad reality's not like that.


Phuket was hot, and I'm just generally glad to be back - geographically. Though I'm somewhat mentally confused and haven't found my way back yet. Then again I've been losing my way so very often. I'm still not sure totally sure if I regret going and not insisting on spending the easter weekend here in Singapore.. but there's no point dwelling too much on the past.

The magazine is well.. everyone's very distracted right now. Even myself. I probably have to quit FarmVille soon - it's eating up time and planning my schedule when I should be playing based on my schedule.

Driving lessons start soon. Thursday afternoons will be generally used up. Then MapleStory will be upgraded in 25 days time or so. That's about it for May.. boring, innit? XD