if I could Cry

"And why do we fall? So that we might learn to pick ourselves up."


All these shall make me sound depressing but the truth is that my optimism is failing. I barely made a D for GP, and got S for geography. With grade echelon CCDDS I have got nothing in the likes of credit. Also, again presentation is my problem.

I think I still want those whom I care about to do better than I. However, I shall not slacken my efforts. Was that confusing? I am rather confused lately. Confusion compounded after I read that which I first ignored. Information is what I live on, but that may also be my curse.


Arg! I desire to turn my gaze away from the boisterous wind, to always see the light beyond the clouds. For the waves and the rain come at me - I must pass through the waters first. Now I would that I did not fall, fail, in the first place, but I cannot but do so. Incompetency! Yet every time I am begun to sink, I am caught up a bit higher. I praise Thee for the mercy and grace given unto me. Great is thy faithfulness: Lord, save me.