negativism

an inherent disability to be struggled against - oh the hypocrisy!


Today I spent a long time catching up on a level or so in DragonFable. I can finally use the level 40 weapons I've been hoarding. So, I really need to get to reality. 2 of my major targets this holiday will be to learn conversational mandarin and go training.


My mother tried to get me to join family devotion with my brothers a while ago. It didn't work out, I was only present in body - my thoughts were annoyed. I guess I don't trust them at all, no, not to share my life, problems, or insights.

I'm now further annoyed as I've learnt that some books my father helped order arrived at the post office and the notice wasn't acted upon. Now they might have been sent back already, and I'd have to wait for such logistics to be sorted out. It's the uncertainty of what is going on that troubles me.


Time passes. Inter-monsoon is giving way to the rainy season. It's almost depressing, except I like rain. Regionally, the last tropical cyclones of the season have spawned in the Indian Ocean and South China Sea, and it will be the Southern hemisphere's turn soon. Already tropical depressions are noted southwest of Sumatra.


I'm trying to find applications for the amount of socionics stuff that I have learnt. I have already sorted out lots of people in church into personality types. Cliques seems so natural now.. Currently I seem to observe a numerical dominance of 2 out of 4 groups of personalities. Apparently the KS committee is in the hands of Delta Quadra, but Beta Quadra is a sizeable portion of the teens too. I don't know what will happen, but I hope power can be shifted to the Beta soon. KSS is more diverse, but I don't know the older youth well enough.

Then there are always the individual odd ones who don't seem to fit in despite the fact that there are people around with suitable personalities. They just need to reach out, or be reached out to. I suppose I was guilty of such withdrawal before, and still guilty of a discriminatory nature. With my eccentricities, I practically had a subconscious checklist for each person I met, not realising that some relationships grow better than others. Now, I should act on what I feel about each person, rather than on criterion..

If anyone wants to know my work, like who's in what type and how they would relate to another person, ask me. This is so that I can properly share the information. I will not put it in public because of the potential for misuse and criticism. oh and something I've concluded: the types ENFp and ESFp have a propensity to openly matchmake other people. Since such efforts are in jest, and unprofessional, they are not to be taken seriously.